say what you mean

okay, i have definitely found another hot button. no one likes head games but i personally get to the point where i smash things. i was talking to someone today who kept telling me one thing, saying he was kidding, saying he wasn't kidding, saying he honestly wasn't kidding, and then saying he was kidding but not really. i was sitting there asking him nicely to stop playing games and just tell me what he was talking about. he kept describing this situation and when i said i didn't know what he was talking about, he accused me of lying. i was so angry by the time ten or fifteen minutes passed that i literally took a plate and swung it against my wall. i'm surprised no one heard it. i have never been so angry. i am certainly not one to lose my temper-- i have a severe sense of self-control and i never express my anger physically. i suppose it is because he does this all the time... head games and such. but it just really got to me. i also cannot stand when i get prank calls. they'll sit there and tell me they know me but not say who they are. i'm not an idiot. i think that's what i most hate about head games. they think you're an idiot and you'll never figure it out. i'm not a goddamn moron and i hate when people treat me like one. i never beat around the bush. i always just say what i mean. i mean, unless i'm finding it hard to find the right words, everything is straightforward and honest. actually, a few entries ago when i asked people to describe me someone said "straightforward" and i was really flattered. i am glad people see me that way. i hate head games. i hate them. i never play them with people because i've been on the other end too many times. it's a game for two year olds. it's petty and pathetic. not to mention pointless.