im a whine bag

i had been complaining excessively.
i cant help it. i really hate it here. i just want to go back to nz and live my life. i have no life at all here. absolutely zilch. im arguing with my family everyday, and i wish that i have a better way to face this situation.
they said that i came back from overseas without meeting their expectations. oh god, who knows what their expectations are. and when i ask, they went quiet. i guess they dont know what they want from me as well. i guess, the only thing i can do now is stay stuck at home, and be a good sis/daughter that...what? that all the housework and cleaning?
i suppose i should be Grateful and appreciate what i have got. so i better shut up before someone label me a spoilt brat.
sighs.
im bored. Bored. BORED.
its a mistake to come home.
*plops on the computer desk*
...........
on a lighter note, i look foward for chatting sessions with him on msn. we talk craps but thats alright with me, because thats the only thing that makes me laugh.
so highlight of the day, log on msn and have idle convos.
*nods*
im turning into a computer dork.